Kamis, 26 September 2019

Hekho

Lagi demo heboh, isinya mahasiswa banyaaaaaak bet, gue jd kangen kuliah.

Kuliah itu masa dimana lo bisa sedikit bodo amat, we old dude are too pragmatic. It is the privilege of mahasiswa to do something stupid, as stupid as closing down streets to tell the world their aspirations.

Tapi gue aja klo ketemu sama diri gue 10 taun yg lalu, bakal banyak hal yg kita berbeda pendapat, mulai dari soal pemilu sampe soal demonstrasi.

Gue dulu percaya klo lo ga nyoblos lo ga boleh protes, yg gue gatau saat itu adalah kontrak sosial politik seorang WN dengan Negara nya itu bukan di pemilu, tp dari pajak. Kita hidup di negara ga gratis juga, jadi ga usah cinta2 banget lah, bangga boleh.

Kontraknya adalah sebagai WN adalah melakukan kewajiban kita - bayar pajak, menaati hukum, dll - dan peran negara ada menyediakan rasa nyaman, aman, dan tenteram, mulai dr law enforcement, bikin jalan, sampe menjaga Hak kita sebagai WN, dan HAM termasuk di dalamnya.

As long as you're paying your taxes and do the things that are expected of you as a citizen, you have every right to demand your country through its government to do what it's expected to do.

Ada transaksi disini, ada ekspektasi. Kehidupan bernegara itu memang tarik tambang, semacam menjaga keseimbangan yg subjektif soal how much power is too much? How much power should we give the government for the to be able to govern well.

Disini sebenernya sumber kepelikan, karena tarik tambang ini dasarnya kepercayaan, dan level kepercayaan itu fluktuatif, kayak dating simulation lah, you do this thing trust level turun you do that thing trust level naik, dan ini sangat subjective dari orang ke orang, Daerah ke daerah, makanya pelik, makanya ga gampang, karena bayangin aja, hal se saklek climate change aja orang masih bisa ga percaya, yg sama2 percaya bisa punya cara yang beda, kayak gue misalnya, ga percaya klo tanggung jawab perihal climate change itu solely on us the individual, those huge greedy corporations juga bertanggung jawab, bahkan kalo mau proporsional ke sumbangan limbah, kayaknya tanggung jawab 7 milliar orang ini ga sampe setengahnya, sisanya ya perusahaan gede yg satu pabriknya ngehasilin polusi 10000 mobil.

Jadi gimana solusinya? Gatau.

Informasi tidak didapat sama rata, gue yang bisa bahasa inggris bisa punya 2 kali lipat sumber informasi, bayangin yg bisa 4 sampe 5 bahasa dan fasih.

Zuzur klo gue lagi mode peduli politik gini jadi pusing sendiri, tapi this mild inconvenience is the price of being informed. Apakah ini membuat saya makin sinis dan skeptis? Sangat. Tapi disatu sisi kok saya ttp masih percaya kalo we can be better.

So with these hoo haa, one thing I want to say is that I understand, it is the price of living in a democracy.

Absolute power corrupts absolutely, klo lo baca2 statement anggota dpr, udah kayak orang lupa kalo dia itu dipilih, punya konstituen, yang mungkin juga sudah berusaha menyampaikan aspirasi lewat jalur yg mereka tau. Ada relasi antara negara dan WN, klo cuma pacaran bisa putus klo ga ketemu eye to eye, tapi ngerubah orang itu sulit, lebih gampang ngerubah presiden kayaknya. Ketika tidak didengarkan, make yourself heard, even if it means nginep di depan dpr dan gambar kontol di pager nya.

Lagian gue juga percaya kalo manusia, di level individual, pada dasarnya bersifat anarkis. Tapi kebanyakan manusia tau bahwa kenyamanan hidup mereka harus ditukar dengan menuruti aturan sebuah negara.

Pencuri masuk penjara kalo ketauan sama yang dicuri dan ketangkep polisi.

Ketika yang dicuri ga sadar dicuri dan ga ketangkep yaaaaaaaa gitu.

Basically is they think for themselves at individual level, tapi yaaa bisa disusupi ide pelan2, makanya ada industri periklanan, yang bisa meyakinkan kamu kalo kamu butuh ultra boost.

Senin, 02 September 2019

Wuhu

I don't believe in a lot of things but I believe this one.

Song is a time machine of some sorts.

Listen to it often enough your brain associates it with certain period of time.

95% of my Spotify playlists were made in my old office, I have one from my first six months, containing a lot of Suicide Squad soundtracks.

I have one from my first gebet phase, another from Phuket Company Trip phase.

I would be lying to myself when I say I'm not missing my old office. I spent 3 years for fucks sake. You know the good and the bad and you miss it anyway.

Last Friday I went there because one of them is resigning and will marry a bule so we probably wouldn't meet again after the wedding day. And I'll miss her.

If there's one thing I learnt from the last 3 years of my life is that people will remember the time you spent together. The details probably won't matter much, but you'll remember it.

So I arrived at my old office, and I felt like coming home.

Of course it felt being home, it consists of people who knows you well enough you consider them a friend, not just coworker.

It's 4.32 and I'm reminiscing about the past.

I guess it's understandably hard to remove 3 years of my life I've spent there, it was a comfort zone, it still is.

But one thing I understand now is that most workplaces are not like my old workplace.

People consider their coworkers as a acquaintances, no more no less, sometimes it develops into something more, into friendships, but most of the time, 99% of the time, they're just that, coworkers who just happened to cross their fates with you, by working at the same place at the same time.