HOOOOOOOOOOOO

This is a post for the sake of posting

also because I like the keyboard of my new laptop

After almost 3,5 years using shitty laptops from work - first 1.5 years using old Dell Inspiron, another 1.5 using Asus XA441, I can finally buy a nice laptop.

I almost buy Asus A412DA, because that's what I can afford, but thanks to me being the absolute stubborn when researching for something to buy, I insist of going to Ratu Plaza instead of buying though JD.id

Lo and behold, I got an Acer Swift3, SF31455G but 2 million less than sticker price, thanks to intel 10th gen, all the 8th gen laptops are getting some heavy discount.

I got a full HD IPS display panel with 99% SRGB at least according to some review, the spec only states 72% NTSC, which equals to 98-99% SRGB. i5 Intel Core 8th gen, NVidia MX250, 8GB of RAM and 256gb SSD.

the only shitty thing is that 8GB RAM is soldered, but it's a dual-channel RAM so it's nice.

It feels so snippy snappy, and quick, tick tock snip snap

Also it's soooooooooooooo thin, like as thin as the macbook pros, or even slightly thinner.

I took out my old HP Pavilion laptop from 2013 and it's a fucking brick, so big and heavy, now it's so small and tiny and full aluminum

I fucking love windows laptop.

fuck jouska

Having been in a shitty family financial condition for the past 4 years or so, I started to equal value with money. You know, mau ketemu temen ngitung ongkos banget padahal intinya bukan itu. 

That I started to obsessively promise myself, when I have extra money, I'll save it all. 

Fun fact, it doesn't work like that. 

You spent as wise as you can, spent first on your need. 

So you need few extra bucks to get that slight better laptop? Go get it, it'll last for a while that you forget you spend it in the first place.

You need shoes? Spent as much as you can for quality shoes, sure don't spend it on 3million ultra boost, but 900k for entry Nike react makes sense. 

Save as much as you can without hurting yourself psychologically, and spent as much as you can without hurting your financial safety net. 

I;m gonna publish this post just because

I think I finally find someone weird enough that I can ignore any normal approaching technique, well, I can throw away any regard of normalcy with her.

I think I wrote something about what I value in life is different from what probably most people consider valuable, to quote myself, 

"And my friend just asked, "so hows *insert the girl's name*"

Then I answer with a rant of how I feel that how I see life is too out there for society's standard that makes me not a good candidate for marriage."

She's the first one that did not ask, "mikir apa sih nic" when I told the story of how I got my hair yellow, like Super Saiyan yellow. Instead she said, "kok seru sih", or something along those lines.

It feels like I find someone from the same planet as me.

Okay this is my navel-gazing, I haven't do anything that resembles "approaching" yet, but I want to know her better, at worst I have new friends where my jokes land 90% of the time. And I consider, "nyebelin abis" with a little smile as my joke works.

Do I put my life on this? No, heck no, people who rerouting all of his/her emotional and physical resources to get to know someone is weird, your priority is your own life, when getting to know someone gets harder than you can tolerate, whatever your toleration level is, you need to stop.

I consider this as a side project, whenever the chance arrive to get to know her, I'll use it.

If there aren't any, I still have 4 games I haven't play yet on my backlog.

Hekho

Lagi demo heboh, isinya mahasiswa banyaaaaaak bet, gue jd kangen kuliah.

Kuliah itu masa dimana lo bisa sedikit bodo amat, we old dude are too pragmatic. It is the privilege of mahasiswa to do something stupid, as stupid as closing down streets to tell the world their aspirations.

Tapi gue aja klo ketemu sama diri gue 10 taun yg lalu, bakal banyak hal yg kita berbeda pendapat, mulai dari soal pemilu sampe soal demonstrasi.

Gue dulu percaya klo lo ga nyoblos lo ga boleh protes, yg gue gatau saat itu adalah kontrak sosial politik seorang WN dengan Negara nya itu bukan di pemilu, tp dari pajak. Kita hidup di negara ga gratis juga, jadi ga usah cinta2 banget lah, bangga boleh.

Kontraknya adalah sebagai WN adalah melakukan kewajiban kita - bayar pajak, menaati hukum, dll - dan peran negara ada menyediakan rasa nyaman, aman, dan tenteram, mulai dr law enforcement, bikin jalan, sampe menjaga Hak kita sebagai WN, dan HAM termasuk di dalamnya.

As long as you're paying your taxes and do the things that are expected of you as a citizen, you have every right to demand your country through its government to do what it's expected to do.

Ada transaksi disini, ada ekspektasi. Kehidupan bernegara itu memang tarik tambang, semacam menjaga keseimbangan yg subjektif soal how much power is too much? How much power should we give the government for the to be able to govern well.

Disini sebenernya sumber kepelikan, karena tarik tambang ini dasarnya kepercayaan, dan level kepercayaan itu fluktuatif, kayak dating simulation lah, you do this thing trust level turun you do that thing trust level naik, dan ini sangat subjective dari orang ke orang, Daerah ke daerah, makanya pelik, makanya ga gampang, karena bayangin aja, hal se saklek climate change aja orang masih bisa ga percaya, yg sama2 percaya bisa punya cara yang beda, kayak gue misalnya, ga percaya klo tanggung jawab perihal climate change itu solely on us the individual, those huge greedy corporations juga bertanggung jawab, bahkan kalo mau proporsional ke sumbangan limbah, kayaknya tanggung jawab 7 milliar orang ini ga sampe setengahnya, sisanya ya perusahaan gede yg satu pabriknya ngehasilin polusi 10000 mobil.

Jadi gimana solusinya? Gatau.

Informasi tidak didapat sama rata, gue yang bisa bahasa inggris bisa punya 2 kali lipat sumber informasi, bayangin yg bisa 4 sampe 5 bahasa dan fasih.

Zuzur klo gue lagi mode peduli politik gini jadi pusing sendiri, tapi this mild inconvenience is the price of being informed. Apakah ini membuat saya makin sinis dan skeptis? Sangat. Tapi disatu sisi kok saya ttp masih percaya kalo we can be better.

So with these hoo haa, one thing I want to say is that I understand, it is the price of living in a democracy.

Absolute power corrupts absolutely, klo lo baca2 statement anggota dpr, udah kayak orang lupa kalo dia itu dipilih, punya konstituen, yang mungkin juga sudah berusaha menyampaikan aspirasi lewat jalur yg mereka tau. Ada relasi antara negara dan WN, klo cuma pacaran bisa putus klo ga ketemu eye to eye, tapi ngerubah orang itu sulit, lebih gampang ngerubah presiden kayaknya. Ketika tidak didengarkan, make yourself heard, even if it means nginep di depan dpr dan gambar kontol di pager nya.

Lagian gue juga percaya kalo manusia, di level individual, pada dasarnya bersifat anarkis. Tapi kebanyakan manusia tau bahwa kenyamanan hidup mereka harus ditukar dengan menuruti aturan sebuah negara.

Pencuri masuk penjara kalo ketauan sama yang dicuri dan ketangkep polisi.

Ketika yang dicuri ga sadar dicuri dan ga ketangkep yaaaaaaaa gitu.

Basically is they think for themselves at individual level, tapi yaaa bisa disusupi ide pelan2, makanya ada industri periklanan, yang bisa meyakinkan kamu kalo kamu butuh ultra boost.

Wuhu

I don't believe in a lot of things but I believe this one.

Song is a time machine of some sorts.

Listen to it often enough your brain associates it with certain period of time.

95% of my Spotify playlists were made in my old office, I have one from my first six months, containing a lot of Suicide Squad soundtracks.

I have one from my first gebet phase, another from Phuket Company Trip phase.

I would be lying to myself when I say I'm not missing my old office. I spent 3 years for fucks sake. You know the good and the bad and you miss it anyway.

Last Friday I went there because one of them is resigning and will marry a bule so we probably wouldn't meet again after the wedding day. And I'll miss her.

If there's one thing I learnt from the last 3 years of my life is that people will remember the time you spent together. The details probably won't matter much, but you'll remember it.

So I arrived at my old office, and I felt like coming home.

Of course it felt being home, it consists of people who knows you well enough you consider them a friend, not just coworker.

It's 4.32 and I'm reminiscing about the past.

I guess it's understandably hard to remove 3 years of my life I've spent there, it was a comfort zone, it still is.

But one thing I understand now is that most workplaces are not like my old workplace.

People consider their coworkers as a acquaintances, no more no less, sometimes it develops into something more, into friendships, but most of the time, 99% of the time, they're just that, coworkers who just happened to cross their fates with you, by working at the same place at the same time.

Strangers

I want to write

I needed to write

Week 2 of new job, now that I have too much time, I'm doing one punch man training.

In theory, it's 100 sit ups, 100 push ups, 100 squats and 10k run everyday.

Alas, i haven't train my body in decades.

So it's whatever my body can handle, but I have to do it every day.

As of today, it's 100 squats, 50 sit ups, and 10 push ups everyday.

I can do 100 squats but divide it by 5x20, I use my legs everyday, so easier for my body.

Sit ups is 25x2

Push ups tho, apparently my upper body strength is shit.

All in all, I have to enjoy the process, it's been a week and to be honest I can't see any differences other than I can increase my daily workouts, on the first day I only did like 70 squats and 20 sit ups, also 5 push ups.

Also I don't see my stomach got any flatter, but hopefully it'll be flat by the 6th weeks.

This might be the first thing in my life that I have to physically force myself to do it.

Se666an

A lady call my name with affectionate tone and now I'm willing to do shit that I usually will try to find 100000 reason not to do.

Seriously, "tolong ya mas nicooo"

Bodo amat, but seriously.

I'll bring anything you ask as long it's reasonably cost and reasonably sized, I don't have the money for expensive shit and I don't have the car to bring you big stuff.

Pompa balon? Yaelah I'll bring you every pompa I have in my house.

I pity people who failed to recognize that I'm a bucin through and through.

You just have to ask me nicely and I'll do it, call my name affectionately and I'll spend the rest of the night thinking of you while opening your WhatsApp profile picture, while listening to any romantic songs I have in my disposal.

Then I'll intellectuallize everything, calculate almost every possible outcome, where 90% of the outcome are failures, then I'll decide not to do anything.

But even if you call me with every known affectionate nickname available to human civilization, I still won't meet you on Friday rush hour, might as well kill me.

But I'll bring you pompa balon.

Oyo Oyo Oyo

When you got pushed to the limit of your sanity, you started to prioritise things you want in life.

Is it the feeling of having power over people? That I need to feel that people need me? (I kinda had that)

Is it the money? (don't have that)

Or time? (don't have that either)

I survived just based on an idea that these people need me, that I am irreplaceable, and being irreplaceable is good? Right?

But then you try to look at the bigger picture, try to be as objective as possible, how do people/company treat people they think is irreplaceable? They try to make them happy.

I understand that yall got bosses, unless you own the shit, you got bosses above you.

So instead of anger - okay, I got angry a little bit - I've come to the point of acceptance, that in it contains understanding, and disappointment.

I have a certain way I want to live my life.

And I've come to accept that I can not have the life I want if I stay there, so I move here.

No hard feelings on me, just relieved.

And really, wishing them the very best of luck

Separate Seasons

It's exactly 7.30 PM right now, in my desk, listening to Spies by Coldplay - Parachutes is their best album, fight me - just sitting, with Line App open on my desktop, and waiting for traffic to disperse and my phone to have enough battery for me to listen to Spotify on my ride home.

To be perfectly honest, I don't know what to write, but I think I need to write, about something, anything.

So let's start with this.

I'm a bit down lately, a bit more neurotic, reactive, too much whining, too tired to even sleep well, there's just so many things in my mind lately.

So people might not enjoy being around me as much.

But the cute barista in my office building's Starbucks knows my name now, at least that's something, I mean I have yellow hair, and I buy too much Starbucks for my liking because I got my THR, so yeah, it's normal she'll recognize me enough to know my name, I should try using her name, sometimes. But she spelled it wrong so there's that. 

And I bought PS4, then I remember why I enjoy playing video games so much, I remember just spending hours trying to beat a game.

And my friend just asked, "so hows *insert the girl's name*"

Then I answer with a rant of how I feel that how I see life is too out there for society's standard that makes me not a good candidate for marriage. Like how I feel that renting a house - as long as it's still on a budget - is far more financially responsible compared to buying a house, because when you rent, if the house goes shit, it's the landlord's responsibility, if it's your own house, well, it's your own house.

Sure, its value increase as it goes, but so does other houses, it's not like you can sell your house and buy a better house, it's more likely the other way around.

And paying a mortgage for 15 fucking years just seems bleak to me.

I yearn to live in a city where the pace is slow, the traffic is humane, and it's not like I'd experience it because the mass transportation is so well maintained I don't particularly need a car, but might buy a sports bike just because.

I don't particularly want a high position in my work, I just need the work for the money, I don't want extra responsibility, especially if other people's mistake is somehow becoming my responsibility.

If suddenly my dad got rich as fuck by selling my grandad's old house, I'll probably stop working, deposit my share and live from it, hire some financial adviser to help me invest.

It's not like I don't have an ambition, it's just that my ambition is not particularly high-paying, or even financially rewarding.

I would love to be a librarian or a bookstore owner.

I would love to ride a motorbike across Indonesia, not shaving my hair while doing it.

I would love to go to get any degree I can get for the rest of my life.

"If money is not a concern, what would you do?", is probably the questions that I go back times and times again when in need.

Circumstances affect choices, financial circumstances is probably one of the biggest factors why people stay at a shit job they don't hate but not particularly love either, just because they need the money.

To be honest, socio-economic is the factor I hate the most when talking about people, I'd love to write a paper about it.

I've seen people quit their dream because of it, I've seen people together grow apart because of it, so yeah, I hated it.

Lagu perancis di Spotify

I think I have written a few about my thoughts on humility, about knowing your value relative to others, to put it simply: You know your position in society, you know you're pretty good at certain things and bad at others.

Apparently, the next step that comes from humility is accepting yourself as a whole, complete with the stupid weaknesses, and from accepting weakness, the usual next step in those self-help books is knowing how to improve it, but what most self-help books forget is about the good part of yourself.

The next step when you know and accept what you're good at is a good dose of arrogance.

It's okay to be arrogant in things you're good at, people can't say shit because you're actually good at it.

oh, and when you accept the shit part of yourself, you shit self-esteem from your ass.

Yeah, I dress like shit but you can't beat me in quick math quiz.

Yeah, I lose the ball once in a while and I don't press but I score goals.

Or when people criticize you without knowing you already know you're shit.

"don't eat Indomie too much you'll get sick", "I know"

"you have a tummy", "yeah I know, trying to lose it"

Humility also knowing what you don't know, I realize people don't know how to handle, "I don't know, and I don't have an opinion on that because I don't know enough to form an opinion"

To quote Jeff Winger, when you take a position on a discussion, you're already losing

You're Cute but You're Boring

Nowadays, it's much harder to know the real side of your crush.

Even pre-social media, we're crushing on someone for the silliest of reason: she's got a cute face, I like how her voice sounds like, I even crushing on someone because she's got good ass every Friday when they wear a long skirt, in my defense, it's a very tight long skirt, but then you fill in the remaining details on your head, you extrapolate their personality from the little you know about them, that's normal because that's what crushing is.

But at that time, in case you're really into someone and you decide to approach them, you have to approach them face to face and try to talk to them. So it's easier for the real version of them to replace the idealized version you have in your head, about whether you like the real version or not is another problem, but the chain of event or the distance between your idealized version of them and the real one is much smaller, due to the fact even the idealized version comes from uncurated image of them, like you saw her being clumsy and shits.

Then comes social media.

Now people take it too seriously, too seriously they have two accounts for separate activity, one is curated, the other is the less curated one. So let's say they want to look wise? Post some quotes, want to look happy? Post happy things. Post the holiday pictures from 6 months ago just because.

So yeah, it's "easier" to know about someone from stalking their social media, but the knowledge you have comes from the curated version of them, they won't post messy room, or their face 5 minutes after waking up hashtag IWakeUpLikeThis, so now the distance between the idealized version and the real one got further and further, bonus points if you happen to crush on someone with 1000 followers and take social media seriously.

Why I suddenly write about this? because suddenly Instagram is a phase you go through whenever you're crushing on someone. So fuck Instagram and Facebook, would deactivate it if it's not for my day job.

Ah shit

I get it, now I get it why some people are serial daters, seriously, I understand it now.

I get it, finally.

Let's go back a bit, I think I wrote about some default state shit in a post before, so for me whose default state for the past, I don't know, 8 years, have been completely single to the bone, not having someone to talk to about things at the end of a tiring days is expected.

Or having nobody to talk to even during the day is expected.

So what did I do? Browsing the Internet aimlessly, gathering fun factoid I'll never use, I mean there's very little possibility of a conversation to end up with me explaining the reason why 500 days of summer is a deconstruction of romantic movies genre.

Sure I'll throw some references here and there, like a test, if you don't get it we can't be friends - technically, we can, but it's more fun with me if you're into the current zeitgeist of society. 

So for the past few weeks, I have been courting a lady, so I get it, the thrill, the fantasizing, everything, I get it.

The idea of having someone to share your life with is appealing.

But here's the thing, I've seen enough sick, manipulative, toxic relationships for my lifetime - of course, I've seen enough, it's my parents.

It makes me wary about starting one, and of course, telling the old stories over and over again, where I work, where I went to high school, looking - sometimes desperately - for connection, somewhere.

But yeah, I get it, the highs of the high, some strangers took an interest, you feel validated, suddenly your existence means something to someone - other than your family and friends, who you take for granted.

But here's the thing, outside validation is good and all that jazz, but I think we're all born alone and die alone, we all should be selfish sometimes, I guess the hard part is balancing between focusing on ourselves, being considerate to others, and of course sharing our life.

Fancy

I want a lot of things, a lot of them, the majority of them is possible for me to acquire in my lifetime.

Like Honda civic FD 2007 for example, if I save enough, I can buy it before I'm 35.

But there are things that I probably will never be able to acquire even if I save for the rest of my life,

it's love.

I'm kidding, it's a Nissan GT-R.

Even the oldest R35 is like 1 billion.

And I think I've come to terms with that.

I will not sacrifice my sanity for money so just I can afford a Nissan GT-R.

Even CBR1000RR SP is a pretty long shot, it's like 750million.

So like everything in life, I have a tier of my dream things.

The highest of high is Nissan GT-R for car and CBR1000RR for a bike, but I can live with 2007 Honda Civic FD and a CBR250RR.

See, here's the thing, I don't know how long I would live, so when the opportunity arises to acquire the thing you want, go get it, but with responsibility, I'm not suggesting you go eating ramen just because you want things.

So yeah, I'm buying a new bike, matte black CBR250RR, probably will cover it with white stickers if I have money

What ifs

Sometimes I dreamed of what-ifs, "What if I was a more obedient student?", "What if instead of choosing to stay single and spending my youth on video games, action figures, reading countless Wikipedia articles, I went on a date?", "What if instead of questioning things, I accept it and play along?"

I might end up in a different position, I might work at a bank, graduated with 3+ GPA, married at 25.

But then again I arrived into a conclusion that I end up where I am because I chose to do so.

In simple term, I am what I am - with every single thing that makes me, me, from having a faulty mouth, indifference to status quo, to wearing the same set of clothes every day - is because how I process things internally, that I decided that the way I live my life now is the most effective and efficient for me.

It might not be pretty, nobody in their right mind would choose CBR250RR as a primary mode of transportation when you could get a car with the same amount of money - an old car, fucking old, but a car nonetheless, where you don't have to worry about getting wet in the rain, where you can go on a date wearing fancy clothes without having to worry whether it's going to rain or not.

If I have to give only one advice, is that you do you.

Doing you starts with questioning yourself.

Why am I feel inferior when I'm single? Why am I ashamed when watching a movie at the theatre alone? Why is it weird that I want a sports fairing bike instead of a car?

More often than not, the answer is that there's no answer because life does not have a manual.

Tiba2 midfield

It's a funny thing what a little bit of confidence can do.

Just bought new pair of football boots which fits really well and not clunky, watched tons of Messi videos, wore my old number 10 shirt, played with the ball while warming up for 10 minutes and felt good about it, then bam, suddenly I can play as a ten.

See, it's not that suddenly I'm becoming a better player, it's just that I feel confident in being involved, so less waiting on the offside line, more asking the ball in the middle of the park, head on a swivel, close ball control, dribbling with heads up.

I just do the basic and do it well, and not trying to over complicate the game.

I even nutmegs people, one of the nutmegs ends up with a bursting run Ala oxlade-chamberlain against Man City minus the thundercunt of a shoot.

I did backheel pass for fucks sake

Still can't score even if my life depends on it tho.

About being alone, feeling lonely, and loneliness.

Buat saya, kesepian yang paling parah adalah waktu ndak punya temen sharing, mulai dari sharing meme sampah di-internet, sampe keluh kesah hati ini ditemani lagu slow rock medio 90-an.

So if we're using kesepian in that terms, saya pribadi sih ndak kesepian. Sendirian? Iya, kesepian? Ndak sih.

Tapi ini ada hubungannya dengan fluktuatif state of being gitu - ini udah terlalu snob tampaknya ya, gini-gini;

Orang yang tiap hari hobi-nya hengot sana sini, telponan/chatting tiap hari, begitu ndak ada yang ngechat atau ngajak hengot, stress. Ini juga masalah dengan orang-orang yang suka kelewat kaya, jadi nyari kesenangannya adalah dengan mencoba jadi tambah kaya, misalnya, atau malah bikin sindikat untuk menguasai dunia, misalnya, atau melakukan risky investment supaya dapet genjotan adrenalin.

Mungkin karena eug emang begini-begini aja, dari jaman SMA hape cuma dipake sms orang rumah atau nanya tugas, sms-an is not a thing for me. Then we got into msn days, sure there are few people who I chat a lot, but it's on probably weekly basis, once or twice a week maybe.

Ndak pernah ngerasani FOMO syndrome juga.

Again, when people asked me whether I feel lonely or not, in my eleventh year of singledome, I'd say no, because this is my basic states, my Kuuga Mighty Form, my OOO's TaToBa.

That changes tho, whenever I dreamt about some form of relationship.

The funny thing is, our brain is incapable of creating new faces, just not in their set of skills, so usually the object of affection is someone close, could be my officemates, or even that girl I saw queueing starbucks in front of me few days earlier, but I think the best was Twice's Jihyo short hair ver.

So in my dream, I'm living a different live, I have some form of meaningful relationship that is more than friend with other person of opposite gender, it rarely goes into sex mode, it's always about the spending time together doing nothing.

Then I wake up, then it goes.

See, at that moment, I'm going through extreme emotional adjustment, I went from being happily in a relationship to sleeping alone again in a few seconds, so maybe I kinda know how it felt to be in a post-relationship stress, but it'll only last for few hours, by lunch time I usually forget who I spent my life with in my dream.

But it does happen every once in a while and I do feel  a rush of sadness, the "ah shit it was a dream", but also the happiness that at least I can still feel things. 

So yeah, I understand when a friend of mine wants to introduce me to someone, it comes from a good place, that from their point of view, my current state of being is kinda sad, and I'm done being offended by it and just be thankful for their attention, it's how they show their love and care. 

Best Part - Daniel Caesar feat. H.E.R

You know that one song that can act as a time machine? Best Part is one of those for me.

For a song to be able to be a time machine, I have to listen to it so much my brain associates it with that particular time, it's blurry at best, can't even remember the details, but I can remember the tone.

Then I pavloved myself with this song if I want to get into that mood.

So what was it like? The "Best Part" time? Well, I just lost my weight, at the time I thought the only way to go is upwards and forwards, was particularly optimistic.

So whenever I feel a bit down I listen to this song, because our brain works that way.

Lagi banyak mau, tapi ga ada duit.

Mabok Baca Medium

Life is a million random occurrences happening at the same time all the time, and by another random factor, multiple random occurrences would collide with each other and create another random shit.

If you think about life like that, life gets easier.

But just because it's random, doesn't mean you can't try to maximize your odds.

When taking a freekick, training will make you better, but at the end of the day, there are other factors, mostly random. The wind, minutes of the freekick - the latter it is the more tired you are, and harder for you to maintain the form and technique necessary to take the freekick.

Control what you can control, don't drink and drive, text and drive, oral sex and drive, just drive.

Make sure your car/motorbike is on good health.

Follow the traffic rules.

Have a crush, hell, have a crush so so so hard you're okay not watching your Premier League chasing team to go with her - oh please don't laugh at me Lun.

Do your bits, because even after you make sure you do everything right, there are other factors: other people, and random shit.

But at least it won't be your fault.

The random shit, is what religious people called "His will", I called it "universe playing jokes on us"

Fyre

So I've been watching Fyre Festival documentary on Netflix and Hulu, and how stupid and pathetic the whole hype marketing is.

It's easier now to trigger that FOMO feeling, thanks to Instagram, you won't post the shitty part of your life, they'll call you attention seeker, post the good part of your life and only the good, it's fake, post boring shit, well, it's boring, and if you're not posting anything, well you're not existing.

But 90% of our life is boring, commuting to work is boring - and agonizing, for us Jakartans.

We need to embrace boring, living a life in search for constant high is not a good way to live.

But we can try to enjoy the boring part: setting up fire playlist for commute, or like me last Friday, just appreciating the fact that my bike works just right, the clutch felt good, the acceleration was there, I felt like Kamen Rider for whole ride, and the music was fire - watch Swing Kids by the way, 10/10 - and suddenly 30 minutes traffic wasn't so bad anymore.

I guess growing up as an outsider does have its virtue.