Thanks to my Spotify daily mix being a fucking jerk and I took the wrong panadol, let's get galau.
Can woman and a man be just friends? In general, I don't know, but if it's me, of course you fucking can.
Thanks to my not so great love life and wrongly took kindness as flirting, I set my brain to assume any kind of kindness is just that: a kindness.
The result? You can put "effortlessly single for 8 years" in there. I mean, it's hard to get the clue - if there are ANY girl that into me and give me all sorts of clue, I'm being generous with myself here - when the clue ladies gave to a dude that interests her ranging from quick glances to just moderate kindness and small talk, I mean I do that all the time.
In one day I usually have my eyes meet with at least 5 person, mas2 Ayam bakar termasuk.
And I think sometimes I want it to be just that, kindness, and proving to myself that nobody likes me, self fulfilling prophecy.
I mean I notice that ladies play with their hair if they notice they're being noticed by someone they think is attractive enough, but then again it could be they just want to fix their hair.
Summary: I always think that live is a game with many side missions, different endings, and no manuals, and unfortunately, side mission of dating is a mission that I am sucked at.
But but, let me being honest here, there is this one girl that always makes me look at her. She's not visually great, I think, but I can't help to glance at her everytime I see her in the office.
But then being mentally slightly fucked up doesn't help with self esteem
