medio 2000

tiba-tiba kangen bener sama lagu-lagu coldplay dari tahun 2000an, dari album parachutes. sekitaran kelas 2-3 SMP ya itu, fucking hell mate.

gara2nya tadi di jalan Coldplay yang Trouble disetel sama 90.4 cosmopolitan FM - peringatan aja sik, cosmpolitan FM saya nobatkan sebagai nostalgia inducing radio untuk angkatan 90an, kalo ga kuat iman bisa mellow di tengah jalan - trus adek gue yang paling kecil nanya, "ini coldplay kan?"

dem son, coldplay berubah banget dari awal keluar sampe orang harus nanya "ini coldplay kan?" 

oh for the record, i'm not against current coldplay, just not my cup of tea, toh saya masih punya parachutes buat di dengarkan.

mumpung saya lagi galau post-sahur, mending nginget medio 2000an.

Dulu SMP saya di Tangerang, SMP 9, direnovasi di tahun ajaran 2004-2005, trus nebeng gedung ke SMA terdekat. cons: sekolah nebeng. pros: sekolah siang, ada radio sekolah yang bisa request bayar ke penyiar 500 perak, mulai lah rangorang norak request lagu kode.

lagu yang berkesan buat saya waktu tuh lagunya Yovie and The Nuno, Inginku Bukan Hanya Jadi Temanmu. bangsat esempe banget ga sik lagunya.

sayang negara api menyerang, saya harus pindah ke jakarta karena kerjaan si bapak. waktu pindahan, theme song nya Ello - Pergi untuk kembali. masuk akal dong, ceritanya ga bakal pindah ke lain hati. *tapi toh ujung2nya pindah juga*

sekarang kalau dilihat kebelakang, dulu bener-bener dari pinggir kota - Tangerang, ke Jakarta cuma kalo lebaran doang - langsung hajar bleh ke Jakarta, sekolah di tebet. culture shock, it took few months to adapt. bener-bener cerita merantau ke kota.

salah satu adaptasi adalah mulai mendengarkan lagu selain lagu indonesia, yang sebenarnya karena terpaksa juga. dulu di tangerang ga punya tv kabel dan internet, jadi sekitaran jam 7-9an ngumpul di kamar bonyok buat ngerjain PR sambil dengerin radio, 107.3, cuma nyetel lagu indonesia selama 3 jam. waktu itu masih kejayaan MTV Ampuh, jawaranya mulai dari senior macem Dewa ato Gigi, "pendatang" macem Sheila on 7 sama Ada Band, ato kelewat obscure macem The Rain dan BRAM, FUCKING BRAM DENGAN MAKNA CINTA.

couldn't be more obscure than that. dulu waktu pertama denger saya kirain orangnya udah toku aliat tua, ternyata botjah.

nah di jakarta tiap pagi dengerinnya dagienk desta, mulai masuk deh lagu-lagu bule, dan yang paling ngena buat saya ya coldplay waktu itu. cuma ada 3 cara buat dengerin coldplay: nunggu di radio sampe botak, beli CD/KASET, ato bluetooth dari temen yang dirumahnya ada speedy dan/atau copy dari CD mp3 5000an.

holy shit resource wise, it was really bad compared to now, i mean i just downloaded Batman v Superman soundtrack in FLAC, at around 2GB total, in a few seconds.

in retrospect tho, it was a decade ago.

in a decade we went from a 1megabit/s for 450rb to 25megabit/s for 850rb. we went from 360p-546p DVD to 4K bluray, a whole generation of console - and it was the biggest jump between console tech wise - and of course the golden days of nokia - menguasai semua kelas dari si supir angkot dengan nokia 8250, gamer dengan N-Gage, dan bussinesman dengan communicator - to golden days of smartphone - different brand for different people.

it's a decade, a decade is a long time. i mean i went from a fairly optimistic and happy person to a fucking cynic with bleak point of view about life.

is there anyway i could review those 10 fucking years and find out where did i go wrong? 

*u**!

i was watching E3 conference, E3 is a conference for huge electronic entertainment company, which is video games basically.

the big 3 were there, sony, microsoft and nintendo, talking about their future project, which is super exciting. future is exciting.

but future is the only thing that is exciting and frightening at the same time, because it is the unknown. future has its pro and con, the pro is of course technological and scientific achievement humanity could achieve, and the con is getting old, and in the end there is death.

getting old is scarier than death, i've come to terms with death. but old, getting old, so old that my body could not keep up with my brain, so old that i couldn't even take a shit without help. while thinking about this, i remember one comment i read on reddit, about older people who once were attractive and active, one sentence struck me hard.

"when i look at my face, i wonder who the hell is that, because inside i still feel 20"

shit isn't that scary? because i'm 25 right now and i still think i'm 20. everytime i read some articles mentioning some actor/athlete's age at 25-27 years old, i still think "oh god they're almost 30", then it came to me that i too am 25 years old.

suddenly time catches up with me. suddenly my friends are getting married, or have a steady relationship, or a steady jobs, some with more money than others, some already bought a house. and i wonder, do they feel 25, or still feel 20 but understand - or accepts, maybe - the fact that they're at the age that people are considered as an adult and have to start to earn a living, even at job they hated. *btw, i'm not encouraging people to love their job, but at least be indifferent about it, if you hate it, it'll eat you*

here i am 25, lurking jobsdb.com everyfucking day while watching AKBingo. 

and job hunting, oh fucking god job fucking hunting. i wish i was born in later centuries, with scandinavian parents. oh how luck plays into someones life.

fuck

fuck

fuck

i said that word so many times in my life it looses its meaning. fuckity fuck. fucking fuck.

sometimes i wonder why the hell i am so timid, i wish i was this crazy dude who can play fucking piano and whenever i feel like shit i create grammy worthy song, basically taylor swift.

fucking taylor swift.

this blog is my escape.

fuck spidey fans.

Saya baru selesai nonton The Amazing Spider-Man, in case kalo lupa, ini yang keluaran tahun 2012, debut Andrew Garfield sebagai Peter.

buat saya pribadi, TASM berhasil membawa unsur-unsur klasik dunia Spider-Man gubahan Stan Lee dan Steve Ditko dan membuatnya relevan sesuai dengan zaman. mulai dari membuat peter dari sekedar nerd kutu buku jadi lebih ke arah seorang outsider, orang yang entah kenapa ga bisa menyatu dengan lingkungannya, karena akui saja lah, jadi science nerd di tahun 2012 itu keren.

kemudian chemistry Gwen-Peter yang ternyata eh ternyata memang pacaran di dunia nyata.

unsurr favorit saya dari TASM adalah kostumnya, menurut saya TASM berhasil membuat saya percaya kalau anak SMA kelas 3 bisa bikin kostum superhero.

it's effective, efficient. ga ada embosed web di kostumnya, yang sebenarnya akui saja lah, hampir ga mungkin anak SMA punya budget untuk spandex plus rubber web. di filmnya sendiri dijelaskan kalau kostum ini dibuat dari spandex untuk competitive skiing yang di cat merah, dan lensa nya berasal dari kacamata yang bisa dibeli di toko-toko.

sebenarnya saya cukup sedih melihat spidey di Civil War kemarin, karena menurut saya TASM dan TASM2 to some extent, punya potensi besar, background Marc Webb yang sutradara film indie juga membantu - fucking (500) Days of Summer is THE shit - membuat interaksi antar karakter begitu natural.

waktu keluar dari bioskop, saya puas banget, it brought something new to superhero genre, dan cukup terkejut melihat respon fandom comicbook - respon general audience positive sekali - yang mencerca film ini habis-habisan, alasannya? kostumnya tidak akurat.

betul, ribuan atau mungkin puluhan ribu fans spidey marah besar cuma karena kostum spidey ga kayak gini:

you know what? fuck those people.

i mean batman alone have gone through what? 9 costume change in the big screen, not to include fucking armored batman, nobody gives a shit. sure people are thankful that finally we have a grey and black batsuit for batfleck, but i've never seen worst fan entitlement than spidey fans.

i mean, see this pics

are you telling me, that that's not spider-man? that suit is distinctly spider-man, it's as spider-man as it could get while also trying to invent something new. every other superhero got different costume for their movie/tv counterpart and nobody gives a flying fuck.

then fast forward to 2016, new spidey costume arrives

it's different but still the same, but it's still not comic accurate, but people lick's MCU's ass for this. oh not to mention now it's made by stark, which is weird, for people who were screaming about keeping shit as close as possible to the source, new spidey costume and it's backgroung is as far as possible from its source.

oh and Civil War CGI is the worst big blockbuster  CGI i have ever seen, TASM series have better CGI and better fight scene, i mean crane scene from TASM and electro fight from TASM is up there, best of CBM scene.

i'm sad i wouldn't be able to see marc webb's full vision for spiderman, and new mary jane, and what fucks me up more is the fact that MCU decided that it's better to have a kid spidey, when the adult one have sooo much potential. why MCU chose kid spidey? i'll never know.