Minggu, 13 November 2016

Richard Sanderson - Reality

another year, another friends are getting married - two in as many months! - and hopefully i can attend both, because both are very dear to me, and i only attend my close friend's marriage, sekedar satu angkatan or friend of a friend won't cut it.

one thing i realized from my friend and work colleague, their marriage days is not all shits and bubbles, most of them about sharing responsibility, who do what tonight, etc. one of my friends had to delay his honeymoon because his company is a shithole of a company with only 12 vacation days, and he is not a particularly rich guy so they have to buy the cheapest tickets available.

i need to go out more, because right now i'm in a echo chamber of upper middle class, those who after wedding reception on saturday, already on a plane to their honeymoon vacation on sunday morning, and not a cheap location either.

or can already afford a home/apartment the next week after their reception.

because admit it, people won't share their home after marriage if their home is 5x5 kostan in the middle of south jakarta.

the reality is not like that, lots of them have to stay with their parents.

i mean it's obvious as fucks, and why the fuck i just realized it now.

but either way, to get to that stage - marriage, duh - one have to have  significant other first, and before that, liking someone, and this i have not feel since 2009-2010 season - bola kali coy.

banyak sebenarnya yg bertanya kok saya tidak membuat effort untuk mencari pasangan, dan biasanya saya balas dengan argument whether it is cost effective and financially responsible for me to date with my current salary and current job, and at what point a date is turning from something fun to something of an investment.

i mean yes, majority of females doesn't need din tai fung for dinner, but just going to date could cost me at least 300k from gasoline to parking to food, and that's we're splitting the bills.

like i said in my previous post, i entered college with vigor and optimism of a teenage, and went out with jadedness of an adult. i'm not avoiding relationship and commitment, but i'm not actively seeking either, too busy with my own world, i mean is there any women out there wants to watch Planet Earth II on weekend and enjoying the soothing voice of Sir David Attenborough?

i mean, where do these people find time AND person for this relationship thingy? i wake up at 7, go to work at 8, arrive at 9, work till 6 but went home at 7 because fuck traffic, arrive at 8, dinner - bath - checking news and twitter - until 10, then go to sleep.

WHERE AND WHEN BROH, WHERE AND WHEN?

weekend? fuck i'm not going out every weekend when i already out from Mon to Fri.

i guess my mindset is wrong.

maybe i should use tinder.

or maybe i'll end up single and driving a nice car at 30s because i don't have a family to worry about.