it's gonna rain

memories are weird - am i suppose to use "are" or "is?" it's probably "are" right? memories is the plural form of memory, but i digress - one song, one sentence, a scene, or a panel in a romance manga - i admit it, i read romance manga now and then, i need a little dose of lovey dovey shit in my otherwise boring life - could trigger a memories from a distant past, and the weirdest thing is, sometimes, the memories are not even complete.

i'm talking about this because i'm experiencing this moment right now.

so for the past few hours i've been reading this romance manga, in that manga, there's this panel where the female character are holding her love interest backpack while walking together - by the way, how romantic is that? - then a memory, a scene even, bursting in my brain, i've been through that kinda shit, in college nonetheless, a little bit more than a year ago.

i remember every single detail. i'm wearing my blue-gold adidas classic jacket, grey jeans, white converse, red adidas backpack, after class. she's wearing a black cardigan, and holding to my backpack from when i talk to my professor all the way to the elevator. i mean, for normal people, when a girl do that to you, it's suppose to be memorable right? it's cute, it's romantic, it's the-annie-of-it-all, the constant atmosphere of would they might they.

i mean cmon, it's supposed to mean something right? there's no fucking way a person would holding to another person backpack all the way from the class to the elevator without some kind of ulterior motives, right? i mean the motives could be anything, it could be to mess with my heart, or as a little code of "i kinda like you"

and it's bugging me now. i'm not even sure the other party remembers it, but if she does, it's kinda a jerkish to me to just forget that, right?

i'm looking for a validation here, but i'm not gonna get any. i mean only few of my friends know about this blog, and i doubt it they read it frequently. but i need to write this, because i have nothing to do, and i'm having an existential crisis thanks to Casshern Sins.

Jobless Diary: nico's movie marathon review.

job hunting is sucks, but thankfully my internet is fast and unlimited, or in other word: civilized. because fuck that fair usage policy. *indiehome use fair usage policy, limiting bandwith to 300GB to protects average user from power user who actually knows how to use fucking internet, fuck indiehome*

i've downloaded hundreds of gigabyte of movies and tv series in the past few weeks, and i'm going to review all of them. ALL OF THEM!!

i'm using my uTorrent history as a guide, first come first reviewed.

Misaeng

this is a drama about work place and culture, in a fictional international trade company in South Korea. now, there are two big reasons why i relate to this show so much: 1. i graduated with international trade as my focus, 2. i just got back from short stint of freelance work at Makassar.

this drama tell story about newbie with shitty CV - like me - and first time worker - like me - and how he got draged into some stupid office drama. and when i say drama, it's not about love, it's about whether your item could get approval from higher ups, with few pragmatic yet optimistic message.

i fucking loved it, it's a breath of fresh air really, and let me tell you this: there's no fucking way western people could make something like this, sure they have the office, but it's a comedy show set in an office environment. this drama is about working, and how we just have to work for the rest of our life. it's kinda depressing when i think about it, but it's reality.

5/5

Batman: Bad Blood.

sure Marvel conquers cinematic universe, but DC is THE undisputed king in everything else - comics, games, and animated series. granted, the last few animated feature post Flashpoint Paradox were average at best, but Bad Blood simply better if not up there with the greatest of greats of DC animated.

it's a combination of Batman: RIP and Black Mirror, which means Dick Grayson is Batman. it's fun, the pace is good, Dick being batman means bats actually cracks a jokes. still got weak in the middle of it, but it's fun nonetheless.

4/5

Steve Jobs

this is the definitive Steve Jobs movie. i mean it's sorkin dialogue with boyle visual? i'm sold from the first trailer. but actually watching it? good god it was a treat.

5/5

Spotlight

now this movie is based on true story. ya'll probably read a lot of news about sexual abused by roman catholic priests in US, now this movie about the news investigation team that unveils this dark secret to the people, and affects the whole world: it turns out it happens in the whole world, not just boston.

it's engaging, the cast ensemble and the acting are top notch.

5/5

Space Pirate Captain Harlock

this is an adaptation/reboot for captain harlock, and by reboot i mean the only same thing between the original and this are the names only. it's 3D animated movies. now here's the thing, hollywood needs to make animated serious movie, but given the stereotype of animation there - it's for kids - it's understandable. well unlike japan, where comics and animation are regarded at the same level as novel or film, having a serious animated movie is normal.

the story is the usual japanese style: everything is implied. here again, it's like japanese moviemaker didn't care about box office return, it's like their art is very personal, so it's often the story is kinda incoherent but if you rethink about it, it makes sense.

i can't really recommend this, but for me, this is what holywood should strife for. twist and turn everywhere, with everything implied and even meta commentary.

5/5 for me.

i still have few unfinished series. okay, anime. one is casshern sins, which actually i have watched few years ago, but forget the whole story. found new uncompressed bluray rip torrent with flac audio, decided to rewatch it again.

i'll update it when i finished shit

today is probably the last day at my current house. well make it a week, this could be the last week at this house. a place i call home for the last 5 years, and kinda the most significant one because i went through the whole 5 years of college in this house.

it's kinda empty now, 50-60% of the stuff are already package and ready to ship.

it is bittersweet.

seeing all these empty table and desks, ready to move.

but hey, the new house is kinda better and more isolated, more reason to be a recluse, and it got great internet coverage.

so yeah, thanks for everything.