The worst thing
about working here, in Gowa, is shit internet. Sure they have Wi-Fi, sure most
people are connected to internet, but it still miles behind compared to what I usually have and do with
internet.
People here only
use internet for two things, email for working, and occasional browsing, mainly
facebook and news, which is what I used to do, 5 years ago.
My daily usage
of internet consist of shitposting on reddit, reading – sometimes irrelevant –
news on 20 tabs at the same time, while listening songs on youtube with
uTorrent downloading few gigabytes of files in the background. Plus few
football match streaming on the weekend.
Compared to
that, using internet only for social media and news feels suffocating for me,
that and i have to worry about fucking quota. Fucking quota in 2015. Unlimited
internet is the future, and according to some people, the future is now. But
the facts dictates that the future is still in the future in some places.
For me, internet
is a symbol for borderless world. Where i could communicate with other side of
the world in real time. Where people could work at company from other country
while still living at home, and as long as the government, our government,
thinks that internet is unnecessary, Indonesia will always playing catch up with the rest of the world.
I see people
being content with the little possession they have here, at first i thought
this – the feeling of contentment – is what people are missing in their life,
always trying to achieve things, to have more, but then it came to my
realizations that these thing that i sometimes hate – always looking up, never
feel content – is the fuel to human civilizations.
People here – i
guess? – feel content with their life, because they don’t know better. They
don’t know that people at other countries could work with 30 paid vacation days
per year, and a full year paid maternal leave. They don’t know that you could
connect with the rest of the world through internet, real time, eliminating
borders.
Here, i’m
posting in my blog using my phone as a router, only opening one tab to save
quota.
The point is,
internet is fucking important.
Internet means
millions of information at the tip of your finger, sure it has its weakness,
lots of it are hoax and bogus. But still it helps people to be more critical,
because they know better, because they are informed. But then again that’s
probably the reason why our government gives little to no shit about internet,
ignorant people are easier to fool and control.
Just imagine
that, that much information at the tip of our fingers. Hell, one website, the
holy wikipedia, probably have all the information in the world, it’s basically
green lantern’s ring, or mobius’ chair. Well wikipedia doesn’t have Joker’s
real name, but that’s another story.
Ps. You all –
“you all” my arse, this blog only have 1 regular reader you arse – probably
think i’m some kind of internet for all activist – she probably wouldn’t think of
that, you pretentious bastard – i’m not, it’s just that my selfish wish
coincidentally align with the greater good, which is enough for me.
Honestly, I’m
not really missing my home, nor my friends, I rarely miss people, and i think
that is a sign of mentally unhealthy person.
Asking for a help is never a
choice for me, i guess that have something to do with my dad’s insistence that
i have to be able to do everything alone, from cleaning my own arse to applying
for college. That and probably my parents trivializing my mental problem.
But despite my shit personality, friends and families stay, and I cherish
them well. But then again staying away from them makes me realize how precious
they really are.
That and i realized i really want that Honda CBR 250 R.
Well that and i realized Willa Holland is life.
