fucking instagram.

i have no problem with sharing, i'm not some le wrong generation, anti-sharing shit. i have problem with the fact that photograph, especially family photograph, are not as special as it used to be. 

in the past, family albums are for family, private consumption. for outsiders to see it, that outsiders have to be considered special, close friends, family, significant other. it used to be special.

and it used to be bad photos artistically speaking, but it was honest.

it did not go through filters, when you took that pictures, the only thing in your mind was that you want to immortalize this beautiful moment with your loved ones. no fake internet points.

now people will go through a lot of effort to engineer a moment, for a fake internet points. some even hired photographer for their instagram account ffs. that suddenly it is important to share to the whole world that you love your family. you're supposed to love your family, you're not special or better than others for loving your dad.

suddenly saying happy birthday to your family in private alone is not enough, suddenly you have to say it with a picture in social media. when in fact your family doesn't have social media account.

i love my father, but people wont see me sharing my dad's picture. when my mother is having a birthday, i told her in person.

suddenly not sharing photograph in consistent basis deemed uncool.

Be The Fucking Batman

there's only few of my friends and family who found out that i'm a cynical bastard. even i hate this trait of mine.

i don't want to be a cynics. i want to be the ultimate optimist, the one that people will turn into when they face problems, and ask for encouraging words to help them go through that shit.

i want be a person who sees good in people through their bad.

i want to be a fucking superman.

this is the definitive superman, right here.

i want to believe when given the opportunity, people will the do good things, the right things.

i tried to believe when given the opportunity, people will the do good things, the right things.

i've been in positive vibe in the last few days

but then reality just smacks you in the fucking face.

people just fucking sin differently.

for the record, i don't have problem with other people's sin, it's their problem with their own god. or if you don't believe in one, with their own sense of morality.

i have problem with people judging other people who sins differently.

like giving advice to eat healthy while smoking. or telling gay people to die - as if being gay make them evil people - while having an affair here and there, the sanctity of marriage my ass.

you what's funny? it's when the very one that you thought the worst sinner, turns out to be the best of us all.

i want to be superman, but it turns out i'm a godamn batman.

Be The Batman, says rocksteady.

ps: wanna know why i've been in a good vibe? because after strings of luck, i can finally afford a PS4 and a copy of Batman Arkham Knight

L.O.V.E

if somebody told you that they have this good investment program.

you have to spend time, money, and emotion to this program, but the success probability is only 50%, if you are male you're probably still have to pay even after you terminate this contract, would you do it? can you guess what this investment program is?

it's freaking marriage.

snobbish sekaligus berusaha menghibur diri.

this post will sounds very snobbish, because that is what i intended to do.

i'm the epitome of jack of all trade. 

i know few things about a lot of things. you can talk to me about economy, politics, recent issue, gossip, cars, football, movies, games, basically minimal knowledge to actually survives in modern world, but i don't have one exact field that i'm specialized at.

if i'm having a job interview, and the interviewer asks about my strongest point, this will be my question: i know/can do a few things in a lot of field. i'm the product of Indonesian education, at least what it intended to do; to create a workforce who can do a lot of things. but unfortunately, a lot of people couldn't exactly do that, so they will probably chose 2-3 things to do. i don't know if this is a curse or a sign of highly evolved intelligence, but i could learn a lot of things, but never deeply. because honestly, learning something too deep won't give me any benefit if i'm not going to be a professor.

the best analogy is probably; if you want detailed answer about economy, you could ask my economy graduate friends. if you want to ask about law, ask my lawyer friends. want to know about politics? ask my polsci friends. but if you want to know the relation between why politics could create some law that would affect economy, i'm that guy.

saya curhat sama teman saya beberapa bulan yang lalu soal jurusan saya. lulus setelah 5 tahun ngga punya fokus yg jelas. saya belajar ekonomi, politik, HI, matematika, sama filsafat. tapi kemarin saya baca artikel kalau orang yang cuma punya satu fokus, karirnya mentok di bidang itu.

mau tau orang-orang yang punya approximate knowledge about a lo of things itu jadi apa? a CEO.

yasudah, mau balik nonton korea

misuh misuh siang hari

paradox makin selarasnya musik-musik yang disetel di radio ini mbingungin. apakah musik makin selaras karena pendengar sukanya yang begitu, apa selera pendengar jadi begini karena musik yang dikasih gitu-gitu aja.

saya tahu akan selalu ada musisi yang menghasilkan lagu-lagu yang niat bikin, as in bikinnya beneran pake alat musik, bukan sampling atau 75% lagunya bass doang. more treble pokoknya.

menurut saya alasan terbesar K-Pop dan J-Pop setenar ini, meskipun tidak punya networking sekuat label-label US, karena mainstream scene nya tetep beda-beda. kalau di US mau masuk top40, minimal ada sesi rapnya, atau edm, atau lagu kelewat mendayu yang selama 3 menit konsisten mendayu terus. sedangkan di K-Pop atau J-Pop, situ bisa bikin lagu rock atau bahkan trot - trot itu dangdutnya korea - dan akan tetap masuk top 40.

sebenarnya saya bosan saja. effort yang dibutuhkan buat nemu lagu berbahasa inggris yang ga mendayu/ngebeat/ngerap/edm itu susah sekali. 

yang saya kritik bukan musisinya, murni produser-produser itu yang makin kesini makin risk averse, dan ini kejadian juga di industri hiburan lain di US sana. buku penuh dengan novel tentang masa depan penuh distopia yang tokoh utamanya remaja, film penuh remake dan reboot - won't say no to batman v superman tho.